Love....sux

For those who are reading this...
love sux...
but...
i just cant life without loving you...

We been together for 4 years....
have our sweet moments...
have our sweat and tears days...
have our life...

but recently...
just recently...

u change...
without a reason for me...

all you gave were just"dont know"...

why?

is it so hard for you to know if you still love me or not?
is it you need to refers to others for the answer of this question?

i really dont understand...

four years of time...
and you can conclude with "dont know"...


for this...
it's really a grace for me if you stab a knife directly into my heart...

at least....
it definitely will cause less pain then what i'm going through now...

but...
my heart cant stop missing you...
my heart cant stop loving you...
it will just stop...if you no more in my life...

i really miss you...
i do wish you can appear in front of me at this very moment...

i've plan my future...
and you were the whole of it...
therefor...
without you....i simply will not have future....

i wish...
you know my feelings...
i wish...
you could see my heart...

for you...my dear...
you are my everything...

i've lost my way in love before...
i dont know what a true love mean to me...
but now...
at the edge...

i really do know...
without any reason nor question...

i really do...
love you with all my heart...

Bored~Ness

well...3 days i've been alone in my room...

two word to describe...bloody boring....

play games...watch movie...eat something...just simply find something to do to waste my time..

then i realize

i have spend 72 hours of my life simply doing nothing...

i've think of going fishing but...the rain just stop doing so...aiks...

what a weekend...

but...

sometimes this kind momentary loneliness just make people realize important stuff that missing from our life...

are we just born to wait to die?

hmm...tricky...

yah...in way we are just waiting for that moment to come

but...

some did say life is a journey...

it depend on how you yourself handling it...

some may rush here and there every moment of their life just to earn more penny...








so some disappointed in their life and just hurting them just to wish the end of their journey arrive sooner...












and many more...


aiks....

three days of loneliness really drive me crazy

my mind keep thinking of stupid stuff...

but think deeper...

for me

i just wish my life to be simple

simple three meal per day

something to do instead of just sleep the whole day

and most of all...

the one who i care being as healthy as they can be

that's all till i find something nice to write about

so

nitz

About ME

well...as a newbie....

let me intro my self

i'm a 21years old who need direction in life

starting this blog just simply to voice out or share something i know

so my biggest interest in life is...


and i also quite like to take photo too(some of my work)

well...

there are much more things i like to do in my life such as....




i wan to try...but it kinda impossible in Malaysia right?(unless tsunami again then i can surf that big wave..haha)

i love outdoors but...current just too much


around...

aiks....hope it either disappear from the face of the earth or just kill everyone living in it...make life simpler

enough of what i like and now for what i dont like

i absolutely hate
because peoples who have involve in this field nowadays are just too hypocrite to me

every word from their mouth are love this country and bla bla bla but every acts they do are just for the benefits of them self

the funniest part is a country name "mamar" who run by a bunch of "macho" soldier actually afraid towards a weak lady~da?

haha

i think i speak too much of what shouldn't be spoken

well....plenty of idea running trough my mind now but...i'm afraid i'm gonna put a fullstop her for now....